i wouldn't front the scene if you paid me

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Note to Self

Alright. I think i cant blog here anymore. This may be my last post. I'm moving to livejournal. It's for friends only. At least i can let out all my angst in peace, not hurting anyone. What's the point of blogging if you can fuck out everything? Well there's other reasons too. Blogspot kinda sucks at times. LJ is tottaly cool when blogging.Lalalala~

Erm well, i wont delete this blog either. It was part of mee. So well i shall sign off then:)

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Everything We Were Has Become

Well life goes on. Have not been blogging after i felt like stabbing my most annoying computer. I blogged a 300word entry & it disappeared in a spilt of a second. Its totally repulsive!

Panic has broke up, i mean Brent Wilson has left. I just hate it when it happens. Why must it happen? Its very saddening to happen & i just wanna abandon them. But i wont, i love them from beginning and i will support them no matter what. Like what arty said, ' Ryan is still there, who the fuck cares man?' Ryan seems more emo, NOO! He looks preety.

I think i will stop going online these days. I just dont feel a need to. So maybe just blogging if anything really happens or taz bugs me. I feel like an outcast these days. i cant wait to get out of singapore. Its just so not IT(i cant find the right word)& people here are mean. I'm sorry but i just gotta say it out. I can be me at times, i have to be pretend. And when I'm, i end up hurting people. I think i will just let time speak for itself, i just dont give a fuck now.

We finally presented the pbl project. It turned out to be hillariously embarrasing. Jun Ting was outside the class peeping through the windows. YOUU!! You havent give me the bloody chocs. It thought the video was entertaining. Jane did a great job, cheeerios. I love the new sitting arragement(maybe not at times). I love sititng with Sherman. We both have great minds. I think we share the same good old passion, i wont say it out. He's a great guy& he's really cute. As in chubby cute, as in idk what way? Its just he's not the kind he seems. He's really witty.

Me & Jeff or should i say, Hui Teng's husband.rofl. Back to where i was, he brings great food to school. He's lazy but he's good, real good. We exchanged food during recess. I just understand him. He's weirdly funny&adorable. And im still guessing his sister's name, who's hp number Liping has? It doesnt make sense, i know. Jeff has this 2week-old apple(fuck eew) under his table.Yuck!! He's too lazy to throw. I think only Hui Teng can handle him.

Shyh Wei has long legs.
Jill made Jogan her brother(lmao).
Nei Nei hair isnt fiery anymore.
Zhen Quan is emo.
Joel loves barney&gets perfect teeth in 38days.
Lay Tian is very nice human being.
Qi Liang likes to talk about space&everything nice.
Jeff likes Sean Paul(wtf?)
Oh yes, Shyh lost his megazord.
Hui Teng is Ryon's admin.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Closing Time

you know this very well, when i'm around and you speak malay, it's fucking obvious that it's about me. It is, it is. Dont deny. The problem is you, dear. You're trying to pick a fight here. Oh very well, see you on monday.

It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something very predictable, and in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
For what it's worth it was worth all the while.

Someday or another.

I skipped CCA today, just didnt feel like going and anyways today's agenda was about lower sec stuff. One day off wouldnt harm. Today was suppose to be the Farewell Party, but i think it's never gonna happen. I wanted a beautiful Masquerade with all the members( even those who've graduated ) wearing the designated masks and it would probably be held in AVA room(we could get more food frm thr, lol). It will be designed like a ballroom by Shamini&me with balloons and every little thing called lovely. But it never happens.

Guang Long keeps asking me for the SD card, and im thinking of an excuse everytime. I just forget to ask frm Ain everytime. I feel like strangling Erik man. Cant he once talk about something bad about himself? He funny lar. He's such an entertainer, his witty jokes never fails. He's quite upset these days but he has a back-up plan( he ar.. dont know what to say lar).

Shyh Wei damn funny sia. Right after watching the hitler movie, he was rushing for the door but it was locked, paiseh. We've been sending love letters to him( the WE are Jill, Sherman, Ryon, Erik and me.) Shyh Wei is very happy, or it seems. Erik writes the best love letters with his most romantic girlish handwriting. When asked how did she jio TZX? His reply," I've got my charm and plus i'm good-looking. It's easy. You wouldnt understand, Beedisha!" Basshbashhhh, he's like that lah. He's super egoistic&confident and for that i must applaude. We won the 3/4-3/5 Debate Competition.muahahah. I've got 2words for you. GAME OVER!!! Hui yock and his 2words. Erik won the best speaker, boo ya Gaurav&Lim Weee for all the shitty noises you made.lalalala~ Who told Vinod to say bloody?nei nei

But its just one lameo Competition. Hope there's a second round, it will be fun, more action from Erik. I hope Erik dumps her fast or get that Shuqun girl, if not he will never finish the board. I've to hear the music from Mr Loh.

She wants a deletion, fine. I knew she will do this, its okay. Life goes on. Who told her to defame me? Please lar, you can fight your way through. You win. Game Over. Happy? Cant wait for monday. There's NAPHA, shall talk then or something? But cant she understand, I dont wanna talk to her. It gets me so pissed that i wanna kill her, nah. Its a feeling you get when you cant stand someone. And I didnt condemn you at all, you even werent named. Think again?

I just love this pic. They look oh-so-cool. Guang long&Lim Wee acting like Max(pout).

Jeff basket sia. He keeps interupting us. He threw dunno who's emaths bookwhile this pic was taken.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

The Extras.

We took a hell loads of pics. It was so cute. Everyone was free. We had fun, i wished he was there. He missed every part of it. We went to Mac after school. The ex 2/5s were there goofing around. They went to play arcade later. I must say Joel is very photogenic!

That's my moniter`05

Racial Harmony 19/07

I can never forget this day. I had tears in my eyes. They've all grown so much&has became so much mature.
I really miss 2/5 so much that I feel like blaming myself why i didnt i treasure the moments. They're truly a ridiculous bunch&we used to slack together. Even though we were not united, let's be frank here. But we were some way or another fun. We did the most crappiest stuff and had the weirdest people.

I wanna recall some stuff.
There was Kenny, who would laugh&smile by sticking the tongue.
Joel, who would just laugh&laugh&laugh, and hated his braces(erm, i guess). He had rubber band across his tongue.Weird? Nah, complicated. He was cool, he still is. He adores BLINGS! and its so fun to talk to him, he was an amusing slang. He would sit with Nachamai&Alvin. He would face a different direction, but whats the point? He says the fan is too cooling, but no point. The fan is directly on top. No diference.
Max, the lovebug. He cant live w/o love. Joel still makes fun of him man. so bad seh. Max loves to pout his lips. LOL!He was the tallest in class though, i mean since sec1.

Today was fun. We had racial harmony. There was some crappy play on stage. I wasnt paying attention. Alot of people wore trad clothes. I wore shahira's Baju Kurung. It looked like maid man. Blue checkered, wtf. We took alot of pics, during amaths.hah.Erik was the best man.He's damn nice&witty(erm action also). Ain was asking him to wait after school so that she could take pix with him. His reply was that "Too many girls are on the waiting list wanting to take his pic. no la jkjk". He's like dat lah, very egoistic.

Darn, we couldnt take pics with him. We told him to come up but he thought we would come down. He was upset and we would be very _______ to be the only taking pics, maybe only me&ain&azreen. but it's ok, there's teacher's day coming up:)

Let's get serious. I think i'll move on from now. It's just the end of us. We had the best moments together&i'll cherish every moment. I really loved her but she gave me so little in return. She kept disappointing me&i feel sick thinking why i kept quiet. she's such a let down.Have you no shame? Now i understand when observe her and i will not repeat the mistake again. We just cant be what we were. I'm not asking for enemity. Just remain as friends, cos she disgusts me.idk why.its the end of us, i just know it and nth can stop this. I can imagine every thing/word you're gonna think/say when read this.It was but never will be. I'm sorry but without the mask, where will you hide?

Just some random pics taken today. It's crappy but close to my heart:)

Sunday, June 11, 2006

West camp 6

I'm getting lazier day by day. Ugh! Came back from camp, lost memories. I met great new friends that makes me cry till this day. It was a 3day camp at JJC. Lemme name those who are really close to my heart.

Wilson(my Willy Wonka, inside joke.), Ban Hao(brr), Zhi Ming( Frankenstien), Suhaiman(goreng pisang aka sore throat mambo), Hakim(sotong), Haron( Happi Happi, he's just this kid who goes aorund sayingn 'happy happy'), Marcus Timothy John Lucus whatever (i still dont know his name, well i guess alot of people too.he doesnt tell us his name?), Syukri(well, he's weird), Belinda(bball vice captain rofl), Bala(idiott),Suzie(nice girl i cant rmbr), and the roti prata guy, shit i forgot his name.

Our Mojo jojo skit was damn hillarious.i loved it and loved the actor. Afiq was burping all thw while.Lol.Everything was great.We pulled it off even though i was fucking nervous, thanks haiqal:) and Suhaiman managed to act while having sore throat.

I wanna doze off. And oh gosh Ryan has a gf!

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Frank&Jamia

Oh gosh, this is hard for me to believe, but oh well I'm happy too. Frank has a girlfriend(i cant believe i'm actually admitting this). Well yeah, he does. He likes her from high school. She seems a girl next door and I'm happy that he chose her, not some other celebs if it will kill me like Deryck has Avril(grr!). But that's a whole new topic altogether.

I'm happy if he's happy, cause for heaven's sake, I dont think i would be able to see in my entire fucking lifetime.Lol. I'm bored at home, was listening to "Jenny was a friend of mine" the whole day, it has good vibe, the indie vibe. Oh yes I found some pics of Frank on his younger days. He was plump, and geeky and yet naughty.LMAO!

that's him, when he's six, looking all innocent.Who knew this kid will end up such a punk rocker, all heavily-tattooed?

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People can change alot over time, eap Frank. My irritaing friend, Jill, has changed alot too man. She was fat when she's young. But something's still the same. She still eats her food, esp her noodles with hands.Lol. Shit, I cant find her pic, I think I deleted it when she irritated me. Not surprised!

I was surfing net when i found this advertisement. It's a rocking concert, I bet and I'm fucking gonna miss it. It's so irritaing to be stuck in Singapore. So many bands are going to perform, I dont wanna miss a THING! GRRR! I dont wanna even count! It's just so many! I wonder what I'll be doing in August. I bet I'll be rotting in Singapore. And i would die to know if anyone that I know of is going to that concert! I hate this feeling. It's happening in Leeds. Fuck LEEDS!

It think I'm too paranoid with all this.GTG!BYE.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Boredom taking over me

GAH!Woke up at 2pm. I've holidays till Thursday. Friday's checking of scripts(erm). I'm practicaly on the computer the whole day. I've nothing else to do. URGH!! I was thinking about Frank the whole day. I watched his videos. I never get bored.

I surfed Frank and Brendon teenage pics. They were all geeks, esp. Brendon.Lol. He wore huge glasses and had braces on probably. Frank was plump, yet looked naughty. Frank has a fetish of kissing Gerard on stage. I find it normal, I think it's just because they're really good friends. The paparazzi thinks he's gay but i dont think so. He will agree at times but i would make myself believe that he isnt:)
FRANK FRANK FRANKIEE! UGH! I feel so weird. I saved 54 pics of Frank. I know i sound very bitchy, haha. Frank likes dogs.
Oh i downloaded this song by Operation Ivy- These boots are made for walking. It's so hillarious, they g screaming the lyrics, and when you compare it with Jessica Simpson, it seems HEAVEN & HELL! Download itor get it from me.
I downloaded quite a number of songs(what do you expect froma girl who's free the whole day?) I'm currently listening to "Under Pressure" by MCR and The Used. Frank's involved:D

Some of you( i guess) dont know who i'm talking about! Let me educate you.

This is Frank!Yes, he's a punk! He has over 38 tattoos on his body.Scared? Relax, he's very manly. He's the second guitarist.

This is Brendon Urie, not urine, from Panic! At The Disco. He's the vocalist,pianist(well, he plays any other instrument which the other cant play). He likes to go high-pitch and he's egoistic at times(ain, you can have him). I actually prefer Ryan.bahah